Crossing rivers

Say a prayer for a poet
whose heart turned cold
once she kissed with warmth
now she'll leave a frostbite on your soul

Say a prayer for a poet
Once she loved with a fire that scared demons out of hell
Now, she has frozen hearts in the chapters of her life

To sit next to you, oh my love, my all! I feel like a child
So am here asking myself - 'Do I have what it takes?'
Tell me my darling...
Will you take me broken?

Say a prayer for this poet
Namatsi

The darkness inside

Once in a while I visit the shadows of yesterday!
I walk through forests that scare lions into dens
I know it aint wise, msitu wanisha kweli
Lakini nilijiagiza, I will go on with a hard heart until,
I learn how to become a snake...
or at least learn how to pretend
To hold gently, kiss passionately and push in the venom quietly without being noticed
until I learn how to fuck like the world will end! and kill slowly and gently
or how to burn the body, spirit and soul... with my eyes open

These shadows aint kind to me... but am tough enough to stand the heat
These shadows are like merciless warriors... but honestly death doesn't scare
In my small mass I swing my sword to the darkness life will casts
Its the thought of forgetting and not getting back at you,
that would scatters my dust or ash to spaces I never want to think of!
Like an eagle I am calculating...
Bury my heart in your prayers... nipunguze chuki angalau
For I am already dead!



© Namatsi Lukoye

If I die today

When weird words come to you and you can only pray that it doesn't happen soon!!!

If I die today, shed no tear in grief
But find strength in the words of my poems
There,
There I will be waiting for you

If I die today, shed no tear in grief
But smile that the world gave me a chance to share memories with you
And I will miss your hugs, but find me in the warmth of your heart
There,
There I will be waiting for you

If I die today, Let me go to the forces that call on me
Wherever my body may go to rest, my spirit remains with you
Remember never to forget that I loved you with the power of the sun
And even death as scary as she sounds cannot stop this love

If I die today, I will be your rainbow
Flashing in the sky once in a while
And for those days that you will miss me terrible
Find me in the words of my poems
There,
There my love, I will always live
In the warmth of your heart
I promise you I will be

© Namatsi Lukoye